It is frustrating that I went to college for the better part of four years in pursuit of a bachelor’s degree in Photojournalism in the end, but because of not being able to finish due to what? Financial difficulties! I was not certified at any level along the way. There is no value to the years I spent because I don’t have any kind of degree, even an associate. So, all those liberal arts courses, the studies in World History, Western Civilization, Politics, Philosophy, Oceanography, all mean nothing. They are just a pile of classes I once took. But they don’t amount to a hill of beans when looking for a job. “Her eI sit all broken hearted! Paid my penny and only farted!” What does living in the UK for eight years add up to in job experience that would get me hired for anything in Preston, Idaho? There is a lot of manufacturing and production. I am no good at that as despite having overcome a great deal of joint pain that I have had all my life, I still have only a certain tolerance for standing and walking and moving about. Whatever talent I have is on the verge of being lost to looking for some menial job while I pay bills. And believe you me, the powers that be, the oligarchy, they don’t give a toss. Best I have got is to work what I can at something that is a bit forgiving, then do what I can in my wood shop with talent. I want work/life balance. I want time with my wonderful family. That is irreplicable! I never worked out what my total time spent in college was, but it adds up to around three and a half years on heavy scheduling. So, the coursework completed, credits taken, may be over four.
The first year I had to get special permission to take my classes. Eighteen units was full-time, and more than that was considered more than full-time. I took twenty-six credits that first semester, and I think only one class less than that the next. But that was me, then. Trying to catch up for a late start into higher education.
So, here I am, fifty-three, and looking for work in a mountain valley. I have a place to live, and hobbies, and people to involve my life in. My age is against me. The fact I spent the last twenty years raising kids is against me. Incompletion in college is against me. And a few other things, too.
I put in an application to drive the school bus for the local district that my kids attend. I would have thought that was a good fit, giving me a chance to maybe take the kids with me on the route, then to and from school as a part of that. I liked the idea of working morning and afternoon, then having the middle of the day free to build up my own business. I liked the idea of having my evenings with my kids. But the job requires a class B license with a passenger endorsement, and getting that, apparently requires about $1,500. I don’t yet know if that is training or licensing, but I think so far that the license is only about $30. So maybe that is training that the district is not willing to cover. They are likely looking for retired truck drivers. But for me, it works out to basically a no. Though I would benefit from getting the license and feeling more confident about hauling my logs and tractor around. Then I could be more confident in hiring out for tractor jobs around town, and getting some day work that way. It is hard to get it locally, because I live where having a tractor is all but mandatory, and everyone help each other. It’s the folks up in town that need the help, and I could provide best for.
So, now I am considering pizza. Yup, back at that again. Generally quick money from tips, decent money from tips and wages, and of course, hard on a car and hard on an insurance policy. Not ideal. But I may have to take the chance on doing that. I would like about 30 hours a week, and still able to be there for the kids. But I would lose evenings without a doubt. The best money comes in the evenings. Thursdays, Fridays, and Saturdays are good. That’s if nothing much has changed in the business. Maybe we will see, unless some other opportunity presents itself. But I will need to drop in an application soon. Money is not an unlimited resource.
Next trick is to build up a business of my own. If I can get that going, then the following action is to reduce to just the business. My business. So, it works, or it doesn’t. But I have got to try. One life to live, and all that.
Even now I am sat here in the morning, typing. I am sore. I know why. I had burgers last night, and they had bready buns. Bread is poison to my joints. It doesn’t seem to take much to get me feeling off, tired, and like it is hard to move about. Between the effects of bread and milk, I have worked out a lot of what has been wrong with me all my life. Keep those out, and I can do a pretty healthy run through the days of my life. Better mobility, less frequent trips to the loo. I have got this. But last night I had two burgers, and the bread on those has knocked me low this morning. At least I know why!
Pacific Palisades is on fire right now in California. My beautiful home state is on fire yet again. It is how it is going to go forever more. Soon enough we will get another complaint that if only the people of California would just go rake leaves, the fires would not happen. I have heard it before. It was just about the stupidest thing I have ever heard, and it is so hard to believe what it pays to be the idiot that says such nonsensical BS! You got time to go catch a bus out to the sticks and rake leaves in an uneven landscape, to put them… where? And do it while not accidentally starting a fire among you and your crews? Yeah, good times! Not at all realistic. But it pays something like $400,000 a year to stand there like an idiot and suggest that like someone should be taking it seriously.
I hate seeing California burn. It is such a beautiful place. I remember being there when Baldwin Hills burned, and a load of houses were lost. That is scary stuff. I drove through Santa Barbara burned in ’90, and some 300 houses were lost then. Paradise was an omen of things to come. The frequency of fires is getting faster, and then there are earthquakes to boot. On top of all that, there was that tropical storm that just about made it ashore as a hurricane a couple of years back. Mudslides and riots are also a thing there, and if you have ever been on any Los Angeles freeway, at all, then you know about what an unnatural disaster that is. But as for me, I am taken by that shoreline. Put my just about anywhere on it, and I am a happy fellow!
Today I need to get the firewood going. We are nearly out, and hey! Look at that! It is January 8th! Over two months of winter left! Just about how long we have been burning already. Then there will be the time required for Spring warmup. Will that come early, and summer be over hot again? Or will it be one of those wet springs where we get a huge pile of snow? I don’t know how I feel about predictions right now. Take it and see.