New Host

As of this posting, I am hosted on a new host with this site.  That’s one job done, and it paid for for the next three years. 

It’s a cold morning here on the farm.  It got down to 20 degrees early, and set off my temperature alarm to let me know that I needed to run the water on low in the kitchen sink to prevent the pipes from freezing.  That’s just part of our winter routine. 

Our grandson is here right now, which is lovely.  He’s a young one and just learning to talk.  It’s an adventurous age of discovery, where we follow him around and discover all the things he can say and all the things he knows about.  This morning he alerted me to the sight of the moon in the frosty mist of six-ish AM.  Not my usual wake up time these days, so I discovered that time of day, too. 

I remembered to get the garbage bins out to the side of the road last night, so there is no last minute stress to send me running in front of a heavy truck with two heavy objects in tow. 

Fifty is rolling up on me faster than a garbage truck does when I forgot to put the bins out.  Joy.  Gonna be just another day, I guess.  I remember being a kid and wonderinf if I would make thirty, and how old that seemed. Wow.  Thirty was twenty years ago.  Those are words that convey less feeling till saying it for self, and for real.  Strange that I looked up at my grandson just now who is sat in his highchair, and was wide-eyed as can be, as though he were expressing my inner feelings. 

Okay, it is getting time to finish getting ready for my day, and to get the little one ready to meet his parents when they come to pick him up. I have not got any of my images to come from the old blog site to this new one, and don’t know if I will be able to. I think this part is going to be a lot of work, especially as I cannot get into WordPress from the back end anymore at the old site. I have donwloaded the whole lot of the data. I am glad not to do a direct transfer anyhow as something unknown in the settings at the old site was preventing me making any changes at all to the appearance of the blog. Maybe now I can have full function again. WordPress is usually not a headache, but in this instance, it is certainly contributing to one.

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The JW’s By Mail

The other day something interesting came in the mail.  One of the local Jehovah’s Witnesses decided to get around Covid restrictions on door to door bullshitting, he would have to send out mailers to probably every address in the city.  We got ours!  The top of the front of the pamphlet included with his personalized letter was titled, “How do you view the Bible?”  Under that, it gave these options: “Would you say it is… a book of human wisdom?  A book of myths and legends?  The word of God?”  Well, I am sure glad it asked! 

First of all, there are more options than just what are listed.  However, if I were to keep to the options given, then let’s start with number one. shall we?  If it is human wisdom, then surely it has the ability to be updated and added to, however, I have never found any subscriber of the Bible ready and willing to start slapping in new books, which itself negates it as human wisdom, because surely it would need to be updated every few years.  In fact, the repulsive reaction of anyone to whom it is suggested that it needs to be updated suggests that ‘human wisdom’ is completely out of the question.  I can leave this one here. 

So let’s go to a book of myths and legends.  Well, it starts out with a couple called Adam and Eve, who are meant to be the first two people on Earth.  They have two sons.  Those two sons marry.  WHO???  Alright, myth and legend is starting to sound like a winner.  It carries on with tales of people who live for centuries, and it tells of a worldwide flood for which there is no evidence.  It talks about the guy who created the entire universe waging over how much he can torture a man before he will give up on him, and it talks about a fella who is meant to gut his own son to prove his love for this great creator.  Well, that puts it along the lines of a fairy tale, because anyone who obeys the voices in their head and splits their child open should first off, be put away to die very old in a prison, and more importantly, should have refused any such voice to begin with.  I am going to go with myth and legend over fairy tales, since there are no obvious morals in some of the tales, and only obvious morals in other tales, e.g.: treat others as you would want to be treated. 

As for it being the word of God, see the paragraph above for the answer to that.  Furthermore, there is no reason to start with the idea that there is a God to begin with.  Any child born is taught about God from its parents, and those who are not do not come to the conclusion that there is one.  We know this because children tend to ‘find’ the God that is prevalent in their own society.  The options are normally limited, and the God they will find is seldom left to chance.  Children are indoctrinated at the least, and often forced to believe in a certain view of deity. 

One of the hard things to do within many modern societies is to take all the indoctrination and throw it all out and begin to look at the world anew.  It often comes with layers of guilt, followed by heaps of shame.  Habits are also hard to break.  Even years after leaving a childhood religion, a person may find themselves singing a hymn, and their religious family or friends will be there to tell them that it is because they are longing for God, rather than remembering an old habit. 

So, the closest answer I can come to is “A Book of Myths and Legends.”  Mother Goose was never co-opted and bashed over people’s heads and told that it is the absolute truth and has the absolute morality by which people should live.  If it were, I would easily say they are the absolute equivalent. 

“Take the risk of thinking for yourself.  Much more happiness, truth, beauty, and wisdom will come to you that way.”  -Christopher Hitchens

The Bible’s virtues can be surmised in the heap of differing religions it has, all competing to be the “true” one, and the differing beliefs they hold, and the parts of the Bible they each ignore.  As it is said, ‘a book that tells you how to treat your slaves is not a moral guide.  It needs to be thrown away.’ 

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A Few Personal Goals

I have gone off Facebook about three years ago, with hardly a look back.  One of the main reasons for doing so was the Trump Administration, and the divisiveness of President Trump, himself.  He was making America into whatever the hell he thought it was, and that was not the America I was raised up in.  Don’t get me wrong, the attitudes predate him, but they were brought to the fore under him, and he normalized what was once abnormal.  As his Presidency progressed, the attitudes of people on Facebook got worse and worse, till “trolls” became a political party.  I finally decided I had had enough of that.  I wish not, because there have been so many people there that I have adored and got along with.  But I always felt a pang of guilt getting rid of someone on my friend list that I could not bear to hear anymore, because I knew I was going into an echo-chamber of my own ideals and my own truth, and the lack of challenge to my point of view was a way of isolating my thoughts and limiting my own understanding.  Yet, there was the assholistic nature of so many of the Trump supporters. 

I tried to draw the line at decency, and I tried to keep involved with others, but eventually I decided it just was not worth it.  Most of the people I know on Facebook are unlikely to show up at my funeral, even if we were to all live in the same town.  But my wife, and my kids, on the other hand…  I wanted to devote myself to them, to not sya to them “just a minute” when all I was doing was responding to some troll or ‘talking’ to someone who I have never personally even met.  That’s when I left Facebook behind, not cling my account, but at least walking willingly away so I could be involved in my life, and I could sleep better at night, thus be even better involved in my own life. 

We have a new President now, and I no longer feel that pit in my stomach when I do wake up in the middle of the night, wondering what the President is thinking up and about to Tweet while sat on the toilette devising how to stir up the country and anger half the population, in what I believe was his means of manipulating the stock market at will, and for his own personal benifit. I have no proof of that, and it is just my own suspicion. With a new man in Office, and though he is not my man for the job, I can at least sleep knowing that we finally have someone competant at governance in place, and that he worries about the American people, and not all the time himself and only himself.

So, it is time to move forward. I have broken the Facebook habit, and I am happy about that. There are new habits to form that should be made to improve my life in more ways now. I have a fair desire to rework this little bit of farm land and help Missus grow the things she wants to have for natural supplies for her crafts. That said, we will be taking this year off of some of our outdoor growing, and redesigning the place, and hopefully getting it ready for the following year and some mass production.

My next steps are to get to work on the repairs we need, the redesign we will do, and the work on making the place the way we want it. There are a lot of things that have been put off for far too long, and it is time to aggressively move forward on them. I am not getting any younger.

I do look forward to spring and wood gathering. I probably should have been going down already as there has been a drought, and no snow, but tomorrow is forecast for 2 to 5 inches of it, so that is probably out. Winter blues. It always drags me down in the middle of it. I get chomping at the bit to get to it, and have weather and frozen ground and plants preventing it.

Time to have a Guinness Extra Stout and call it an evening, I guess.

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Insurrection, Impeachment, Inaguration

These are the Wednesdays of January. There is no other way to see this but as an historic moment in America.

The first Wednesday showed the true colors of the Trump Presidency. And a person would have to of been a damned fool to have been taken by surprise by it. He was softening the ground for this for months. He wanted this to happen, and he got it. And he lost. After meeting with the President of China he noted the lifetime Presidency Xi had acquired and gloated that maybe one day we would have that in America, too. That is when it began publicly. He also talked about how the election in 2016 was rigged, to ease his feeling about Hillary having got more votes than him. Then he dragged that one out again to suggest he could not possibly lose in 2020. He even got bold enough to say that he could not possibly lose to “Sleepy Joe, the worst Presidential candidate in US History.” Well, looky here where we are now! Then it was all about lost Trump ballots, ballots thrown in a river, and abesntee ballots being faked, and dead people voting and ballot dumps. When he took it to court, he lost on 60 out of 61 instances, and the one he won was only over a handfull of votes. And this was in front of judges appointed by virtually every President since Bush Sr.!

Impeachment came a week later, which was correct. There is no way he did not incite that crowd, even with plausible deniability, and indirect speech accounted for. He said “We are going to go down to the Capitol.” There was no business of his there. The election was over, and it was well past time for him to gracefully concede. The election wasn’t even close, and even if he was right that the ballots were dumped, we are suppsed to believe that more than seven million of them were printed up somewhere and put in envelopes and dropped into the systems without local authorities actually cottoning on to it… Utter bullshit. Impeachment? He kept saying the election was going to be stolen, and not for his lack of effort, it could have been. He tried to say it enough that it would come to pass. That is a well preacticed narcissist right there.

Inaguration of the first female in the second spot in America was a big deal a week later, but that she was a black woman and a South Asian woman was an even bigger deal, by far. Some will try to dismiss this and pretend that it doesn’t matter. Then let them not complain for the sakes of those for whome it does matter. America is a diverse country by its nature, and the elected officials need to reflect that. By the core of the nature of humanity, we are far too late to be finally electing a woman to either of the Exeutive offices. Half the damn species is female! Why the hell has this equality not been acknowledged rightfully yet? This is the stupidest thing! I know that it all roots in male inferiority that has long been enshrined in religious dogmas going back at least as far as Jesus Christ! But this needs to end. It needed to never of have begun.

We are living through one of those historic moments, and it is leaving my head spinning. I have not felt anything quite like this since 9/11.

The most exciting aspect of it all though, is that we just might make it through all of this after all. Joe Biden was never my man for office. He was never progressive enough; not even close. But one thing he has for damn sure demonstrated was the ability to keep pressing on, peacefully, quietly, and how to keep in control when things look awful. I’ll give him this, he has been dignified, and has brought the right messages to the fore. I wish him every success, and all the progress he is seeking.

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Excusing The People Involved

I have seen that in the last few days there have been a couple of guys who were clearly photographed during the Capitol riots who have turned themselves in to local law enforcement. I have got to say, fair dues to them. I hope that is taken into account during sentencing. I can respect them owning up to their misdeeds.

There has been one who incited the riots who so far has not taken ownership of his role in it. That is to be expected. That is why he is, and always has been, a clear and present danger. I do not know how anyone can excuse his behavior prior ro the rioting, but after it?

I know there has been chatter online about another protest, this one armed, that has been planned for the Sunday a week from tomorrow. We’ll see how that plays out. IT would be a good time to show a bit more contrition than that, but there are those who have been anticipating a Civil War for years, and I will not be surprised to see them show up and start it. But that is jut me and ear to the ground listening. I have not had my ear to the ground much. But I have heard talk of it for aas long as I can remember. I have seen the events of Ruby Ridge and Waco unfold, and there are fols who still harbor ill towards the government for things like that.

I would like to see us come to peace, and I would like to see the Republicans deal with the election of Biden the way I had to deal with the election of Trump. Sometimes a fella has got to just suck it up and ride it out. That’s hard when it affects people’s jobs and such, and when it involves wars and the like. But the tin hat conspiracies are way too much for me. I’d like to think that most forls are just doing the best they can according to their priciples. Well, whatever the case, I think I see as I get older just why some people are so damn nostalgic for times gone by. It is not that it was so much better or worse, but that as the number of bad things that happen are seen, it gets to be a pile of pain and cynicism that drives one to look back towards their personal time of innocence, when they had not been so aware of how bad it all can be.

My personal anger is starting to subside a bit. My neighbor missed their garbage pick up this week, so I offered them the use of one of our bins to get them through so they don’t end up under a pile of garbage in their house. They have cleared our snow twice before when we were in deep, and I remember that. But even if not, I just prefer to be that way. That is the kind of thing that is at the core of a community, and at the core of understanding one another and living peacefully. Then it is a matter of understanding by extension that most people are as good as the guy next door who clears your snow. Sure, there are exceptions, but…

I have looked into Facebook a few times over the past couple of days. Stupid Capitol riots made me want to know what people were saying, and what memes have been passed around. I see that I am not the only one outraged. With both sides guilty of rioting now, maybe they can look eachotehr eye to eye and see eachother with a bit more understanding? Well, I wish. I doubt, but I wish.

I’m tired. Time for bed.

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Why I Am Pissed Off

In November 2016, the United States elected what I saw as the absolute worst candidate for Presidential office in my lifetime. He was a man who mocked the handicapped, lied about immigrants, lied about “caravans” coming to America to take jobs, incited crowds to violence and said he would pay the court costs of those who would hit someone in opposition to him. In short, he was a divider. He has called democrats “do nothing Democrats” because they don’t subscribe to his divisive politics, and he has incted cities and communities against one another when protesters stood up against police brutality. In short, he was from the begining till now a divider and a narcisist in search of his own agenda, which I have on the suspicion side always believed was the tail wagging the dog while he enriched himself on Wall Street with simple tweets.

In 2016, Trump won the election while accusations of Russian interference flew. He won the election despite losing the popular vote by more than 3 million people. And I had to swallow my hurt and pride and accept that he was the President of this country. Yes, I supported his impeachment, when he tied Congressional funding to an ally to his reciept of “dirt” on the Bidens. That was unethical and illegal. I watched as his childish caucaus behaved like a mob and violated Capitol security protocols for publicity, and to stunt the process based on thier own lies about their exclusion from it. They were not excluded. But hey, whatever. It is not like anyone would try to behave like that again, right? It’s not like they set the example of mobbing the Capitol.

Trump’s ass-kissers in the Senate did not vote to impeach him. Susan Collins said she thought he learned his lesson. The only one with enough principle to see the evidence and rule according to his Constitutional oath was Mitt Romney. I completely disagrss with Mitt Romney, but I sure do respect his commitment to principles and to his oath.

Then when the campaign began, Trump foreshadowed for months what happened in the Capitol on Wednesday, January 6th, 2021. Epiphany. It means enlightenmment, or revelation. That was the orthadox holiday of that day. It was the litteral revelation of that day what Trump really is, a coward who would incite a mob to do his bidding, who would vow to accompany them, and who would then hide away in the White House while the mob took off. Does anyone think that mob would have been as out of control if he HAD lead them? Does anyone think he was brave for setting them lose?

Apparently, Trump sat on his fat ass and watched the events unfold on TV. He apparently seemed to take glee in the mob “fighting for him.” Joe Biden beat him to the screens of America to tell the mob to go home, and then to demand Trump do the same. The true leader revealed himself.

I am also pissed that organizations like FOX News and people like Rush Limbaugh have been formenting these attitudes and lies for years with no reprocutions, and not even a hint of being required to at least identify themselvs as opinion hosts, spin doctors, propaganda, and bullshit artists.

America has egg on her face at the hands of the party that claimed to fear authoritarianism, and at the hands from which the prepper movement sprang. The people who feared black helicopters all through the 90’s have come to Washington and tried to overthrow Democracy, and the will of the majority to install their authoritarian, and that irony is not lost.

Storming the Capitol is unacceptable. Making allegations of alligations of voter fraud in order to submit allegations of voter fraud as evidence of voter fraud is unacceptable. There are Senators, such as Cruz and Hawley, who should resign before the end of today, Friday. Five lives were lost during their little riot. Those were lives that were supposed to be protected by them as US Senators, not endangered for lying’s sake. Donald Trump lost by over 8 million votes. Evidence before the election suggested that many of his former followers were sick of his shit and jumping ship in the election. We should not pretend to be surprised.

This is not a revolution. A revolution is about ideas. This was about a man. This was a revolt. The revolters were inside the Capitol, destorying more than public property, but what once made America Great independant of any one man. They destroyed our reputation, and that was public property. Well, I suppose the America Ego needed a little bringing down to realize we are just as vulnerable and just as good as anyone else in the world.

But I do believe this is a phase. I hold out hope that we can and will recover from this. I hold out hope that we can get at least a few of the tin-hats out of governance, out of the public spotlight, and we maybe educate ourselves to recognise when we are being lied to by an asshole with a god complex who thinks he can shoot someone on 5th Avenue and get away with it.

So yes. I am pissed off. My candidate did not win in 2016, and still, I accpeted it and moved on. My candidate did not win in 2020, and I am moving on with it. The inevitable result of a constant stream of lies fed to a party by news organizations and opinion hosts has come to its inevitable result.

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A Coup in America

Yesterday we witnessed something that has not been done in America before.  Don’t let anyone belittle it by telling you it has happened before when a State House was taken by racists more than an hundred years ago.  They did not take the Capitol, and they did not try to force a national coup in opposition to the 8 million vote majority of the American people.  Yesterday, a mob was incited by The President of the United States of America.  Yesterday he knowingly riled them up against the Congress while they were working through a Constitutional;y mandated formality to certify the Election.  All the while, he promised to go with them to the Capitol to stand in opposition, and then went home to The White House, and created with that, and the almost loose words he used, plausible deniability.  It was the kind of wording we have heard before, during the Ukraine call.  All the while, Ted Cruz initiated objections to State’s Elections, interfering with State’s Rights, and pretended he was just serving the interests of those who think there was voter fraud, of which there was no evidence and which Cruz himself said there were many instanced of allegations of voter fraud, which he and Trump and Trump’s loser lawyer made, and stirred among the tin hats of our country. 

I almost made it to 50 before witnessing such a serious threat to our democracy.  What I find wild is that I thought the people who did it were the nuts who for years complained that the government was coming for them.  Instead, they came for the government, and they came for the majority of the American People. 

There is talk of having Mike Pence invoke the 25th Amendment.  That is a bad choice.  It is designed to work for a President that is physically incapacitated.  It is not designed for someone who will receive a letter saying “We think you cannot do your job,” and he can rebuke it with a simple letter back saying. “yes I can.”  Furthermore, it ignores an important aspect of this crime, which is punishment.  So we begin with impeachment.  How long does it take to write up the reasons why, vote on it, and pass up on the discussion when the iron is hot and we all still feel the burn of it?  Donald J Trump has committed an act of sedition.  We all have born witness to it.  His followers should bear the shame of it. 

Yesterday, WHILE the Capitol incursion was happening, my child was on a group call with some students from her school.  One boy was heard by me to say, “Donald Trump won the election, and there is nothing you can do about it.”  I know that is just a child, but I am sure he reflects the teachings of his parents.  “Nothing you can do about it?”  I beg to differ.  I don’t need to do much about it.  His followers are hell bent to destroy this Democracy for the sake of an authoritarian.  We have words for that kind of thing, and the one that comes in particular to mind is fascisms.  I am reminded of Julius Caesar crossing the Rubicon.  Trump cannot be allowed to.  He needs to be removed, and prosecuted. 

Free Speech is first enshrined in the Constitution, to protect the people from government retaliation.  Understandably it has its limitations.  Inciting a riot is one of them.  Putting people in danger is not legal even under “free speech.”  Encouraging a mob to go to the Capitol and putting an end to a Constitutional process is not legal. 

And above all, I have to ask, why would anyone follow a leader who promised to go with, not to lead, then failed to do even that? 

Yesterday was depressing.  It was most of all depressing because it was plainly coming, and that has been apparent for years.  It has been apparent for as many years as I have been telling my children that “this is not normal.”  The behavior of the current President is not normal.  It has not been for quite some time.

Trump has been working on this division for some time.  He has been belittling “the Democrats” for years, calling them “the do nothing Democrats,” and treating his political opposition as though they were useless and did not matter, rather than as people who he was supposed to represent.  He has had a team, and he has had an opposition, which has lead to this coup attempt.  This has not been an accident.  This is premeditated.  And to those who say, “well, he’s just a fighter.”  He has no grace.  He is not suited to national leadership.  He may have done fine in the military, but for those damned bone spurs. 


There is so much more to say on the subject.  But for now, I don’t care to.  People better suited than me are in the position to actually DO something about it.  That’s what matters.  Our Democracy was threatened yesterday by a bunch of tin hat crazies who bought their hats off their dear leader, and they want to follow him.  I do not.  I want a government that acts in the interest of my needs, and the needs of every citizen.  Not a dictator enshrined by people who have got to follow some higher power. 


Lastly, Conservatives are always calling Liberals “snowflakes.”  What was that blizzard on the Capitol yesterday? 

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2021–New Year, New Things

It is just a time marker, I know, and nothing more dramatic than that, but I am well in the habit of using it for the sake of making progress and moving forward, and sometimes just putting things behind me.  While 2020 has had more than its share of horrors, it has had its pleasures, too.  This year started with my sister-in-law out here visiting us from the UK, and while things quickly deteriorated with the advent of Covid just as she departed for home, we never did suffer too much personally.  I cannot pretend that 300,000 people in America alone has not had its affect.  After all, I am not heartless.  That is horrible!  300K, and that is with some efforts to stop it spreading!  What could it have been if we threw caution to the wind and just let Covid have at it?  That said, is many ways 2020 has been our best year yet as a family.  Having to lock down and stay close to home all year had little effect.  In fact, for us, it was more like others were getting into the groove of doing what we already were.  We already were in love with online grocery shopping, and not having to walk around the store for hours fighting with the kids over what goes into the basket, and not taking things we see just because we saw them.  We were also already home schooling our kids, and have been doing so for many years.  The world seemed to have tumbled into the niche we were well established into. 

Now the new year has started and the world is looking at getting vaccinated and reestablishing normal and we are making our plans for the year to come.  We have a lot to fix on the house still in order to improve our return on it if we ever decide to sell it.  It is a beautiful old house, and I would hate to see it lost to the wrecked hulks that have been falling down in our community around us.  This place has stood an hundred years, nd could easily stand another if we can get a few things fixed.  They are big things, though, including foundation work.  There are things we will do ourselves and things we will hire out for, and part of this is determining which is which, and what other investments such as tools we will get to do ourselves and save the money which will set us ahead on the tools. 

Missus makes a decent salary, and we have seen the fruits of it this past year more than any in our time together.  We have some more picking to do if the tree is still bearing fruit. 

That said, we are still do-it-yourselfers.  We still like to live fairly cheap in order to live as well as possible on what we have got.  It just has happened that this year past we have had a few more things new rather than all used or barely gotten. 

So, nothing profound to start this year, and only a small set of specific goals.  Most of those goals are setting up workshops for Missus and Me, and getting my tractor to do a load of work around the house and daily chores, and a bit of farming across the street.  We will be rearranging our animal and livestock situation to be more specific to our needs and less of a run amok farm.  I have got to get water supply out to the farmyards because bucket carrying in the winters sucks bigtime, and I am not getting younger.  If I get a wood mill and continue to have access to the free wood I have been getting, I would like to start milling our flooring this year.  That is an ambitious one, I know.  But there are a lot of other things I could use a mill for, too.  I have woodsheds that need putting up, and I would like to build some furniture for the house.  I turn fifty this year, and still have some good working time in me, so I would like to accomplish some things with it.  And these are things that have been put off for too long.  I have some ideas that I would like to work on on the spare bits of the pasture, too, to make the place look better and to give us a place to be in nature.  And most of that work will be just diesel fuel.  Well, and some scissors to take cuttings for replanting. 

Always moving forward.  Always, always.  Happy New Year! 

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Farewell to 2020

I always suspected that 2020 would be ironic and the cause for clear vision.  It came in, and almost straight away there was a hint of change on the horizon.  It was when the NBA cancelled in March that I realized that things were pretty serious for an organization like that to call it quits for the season.  It was jaw-droppingly amazing!  Trump got on the TV and pretended to be doing something, which he continued to do in smaller fashion with his daily briefings, till he got bored of it and stopped.  I m not sophisticated enough to tell you if the clown show turned into a shit-show, or the shit-show turned into a clown show.  Whichever it was, the clown finally took a shit on all of it after the election and abdicated what duties were left to try to run for re-election after he had already lost resoundingly.  Tonight, we ring out the old year, and forget the worst of them since 2016 when everybody and my mother died. 

I nursed a shot of Baily’s tonight, wishing it would make my teeth numb, but there is no chance of going so far on so little fuel.  But it’s okay.  I’ll be 50 this coming year.  That is so exciting that I am happy to head off to bed soon myself.  I have got some chores to do tomorrow anyhow.  Don’t let the banker taking the day off make you thing that anyone else is. 

Till then, I sit and write.  I ponder it all, and where I fit into it.  Nothing profound comes to mind.  I wish I knew that when I was 25.  Well, well, well…  So it really is what I make of it, and not some grand design!  It makes my teeth feel numb. 

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This Is Only A Test

Today I am just running a test post from a different computer.  This is going to be nice, isn’t it? 

But truthfully, this is also the end of 2020.  I am not going to miss this one, I am sure!  This has been a rough year, overall.  More for other people than our family, true, but it is not myself I am feeling sorry for.  I am sad for the hundreds of thousands lost prematurely due to Covid, and for the fact that there are so many people who are indifferent about the lives lost because it has not affected them, and if it has, then my goodness… 

And let’s hope that 2020 is not only a test. 

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