Some days I just feel like swearing as many times as I can at the top of my lungs! Not for any particular reason. I just feel like belting out a few thousand foul words. Today is one of those days, of course, which is why I bring it up. Is it the result of some natural repulsion to some part of my life? Is it a primitive feeling that resonated from the days my ancestors crawled from the cave and into the light of civilization? Is it a reaction to pressures that I have not acknowledged? Is it the kids?
There is a lot going on right now in life. We are paused for the moment with the VISA applications in order to get through Christmas and get back on the ball with the money end of it all. The economy is tough on us at the moment, and frankly I cannot figure out just why. The money is vanishing, and I can’t tell you where to! But we are budgeting to figure it all out and push out of here so hopefully we can situate ourselves for a better lifestyle in America.
Our dear friend Pat has left Worcester once and for all. She is due to fly out of England on the 13th, and won’t be back except for visits. I am sure going to miss the sanity Pat has provided us for so long. But more than that, I am going to miss her insanity.
Katrina’s grandmother passed away on the 27th. She is going to be sorely missed too. My moms fiancé passed away on the 13th of November as well. Wow, what a tragic month… It was all started with someone I had a massive crush on in high school losing her dear mom. Of course, when your contemporaries start losing their parents, it starts putting things into perspective for you. Well, it has for me! I was sad for her loss, then along came mom’s, and now my dear wife’s… Well, Thanksgiving was good anyway. We ate chicken because frankly we could not justify the cost of a turkey when the bills needed paying and the rest of our money so tight.
But none of this is why I want to swear today.
The need to swear is more innate. It is like the drive for sex. It is coming up from some place in my mind that just tells me I must stand up and belt out a few of the dirtiest words my kids have never heard loud enough that my family in America could hear them. Let’s hope I figure it out before my kids learn some superfluous language that won’t do them any good except when they feel like swearing, and don’t know why…
Kelsey
PS… It is 2:00 PM, and it is sooo dark out that I can hardly see the keyboard in front of me right now. Have we moved closer to the North Pole? Can’t wait till winter has gone by.