Sunday Cleaning, Again….

Yet another busy day here today!  It is my mom’s last day visiting us and we will be taking her down to Salt Lake City tomorrow.  I will be sad to see her go.  On the other hand, she has had such a horrible time here that I will be surprised if she ever comes back out before she and her mom get things patched up between them. 

I started the day out with the irrigation and watering the lawn, then went to work on the lighting in the living room, which I have been so eager to get sorted for so long now!  When we fist came up here it took 19 seconds from the flip of the switch to the first of the fluorescent tubes flickering on, and as long as a minute till the last one did.  Now they have all been replaced with standard lights, and of course, the come on instantly.  For now they are compact fluorescent, but I will be replacing those with LED as soon as I can, then putting in a dimmer switch.  To bring the outdoors indoors a bit, I expect we will be putting in daylight balanced bulbs around where I worked today, which is a recessed gutter in the ceiling around the edges of the exterior walls.  Then I will be putting in a regular ceiling rose in the middle of the room with warm lighting to offset the daylight bulbs.  I also would like to build a mantle for the fireplace, and put a string of LED’s under it to illuminate the hearth.  I would connect that to the gutter lighting. 

Anyway, it is great to see progress there!  We also did a bit of cleaning, particularly in the girls’ bedroom!  They just had too much stuff and our six year old could not manage to clean it when it got a mess, so we have, shall we say, made it more manageable for her?

When Rosa came to collect the dining room table and hutch, she brought two of our neighbors, and my grandmother and uncle Steve, who were not really wanted in our house just at this time.  I remained as civil as could be though, and we got it moved out and put in a smaller table from the barn.  So now, the woman down the street has a table that can sit ten, and we have one that can sit four, as per grandma’s wishes, because that makes sense.  On Tuesday we will be receiving the new dishes we ordered, and after that I can send the rest of the dishes from here to grandma’s house, because a woman living alone needs 18 or 20 plates, and a family of six needs none.

With all of this done, tomorrow brings us to Salt Lake and back, and some cleaning on the truck in the morning, and some rearranging before we leave. 

I have to note here too, because this is my journal, after all, that when Grandma and Rosa were here, mom told Grandma about my brother Kendall getting into a motorcycle accident in which he slid under the back end of a car.  Grandma’s response, “Well, that happens.”  She never even asked if he was alight.  What did catch her attention though, and she and Rosa spent a moment talking about under their breaths was a song lyric I put on the front door in chalk to remind us why we do everything we do every day, which is Bon Jovi’s “Because We Can!”  I have no idea what her conscious told her that might mean, but I literally put it up there to remind myself to work hard every day at home!  We are trying to build a farm here that can support our family going forward, and despite its failures, I really believe that we have sorted some issues out this year that will allow us a degree of bounty next year.  We have so much work to do around here!  Every day we are faced with a load of things to do.  And the number one reason we will do anything, no matter where or what the situation, is because we can. 

I think one of the next things to come will be a finished and clean garage, ready for the cabinets I need to add in there, and maybe even the washing machine from the barn, if it still works, and I can get the dead cat smell out of it. 

To answer what you are asking yourself, my grandparents kept the barn, granary, and garage in such a mess when they had the place that when a cat died under that washer, they could not get in there to do anything about it, so it just sat there till it was mummified.  Nasty beyond belief.  And so was the dead cat thing.  It was one of the things that pissed me off about them, where we had come up here to live and help them out, and just the moment I cleaned out the garage, against their objections because of the amount of debris I had to haul to the dump, which for some reason they thought they wanted, just at that very moment that I declared the garage clean, they suddenly decided it was important to park their car in there, rather than allowing me a space to workshop in.  So I forced the issue and got both in there.  Of course now, only one thing is in there, or will be in there.  Life is good!  Everything is to a point where all the cleaning left is small projects, a couple of hours each at most.  So, it is not a stopping place.  It is a starting place. 

What are the next steps?  Well, after returning mom on her way to home, we will come back, take a break, open our new dishes and wash them, clean out the current items, and probably prepare a load for my grandmother’s house.  From there, I would like to start on the garage first, then the last room of the granary, although the order here is not too important.  Then we need to get some genealogy in from the barn so I can copy photos.  I’ll get my office set up for that, and get out my Elinchrome strobes, just for fun if I have to!  This will be a job for the Nikon.  Then that stuff can go over to Grandma’s house too.  By then it will be after Christmas, I am sure!  But really, we will need to get the kids ready for school soon too.  Amid all of this, I need to get the ceiling out of the dining room where a drop ceiling had been put in some years ago.  The carpet is out there, and the smell not so bad at all.  I need to set up a ceiling fan for that room too, and one for the boys’ bedroom.  Why?  Because it gets hot, and because I can!  I want that room to trap all the heat in it in the winter, then the fan to redistribute it around the house, hopefully more evenly. 

Further, there are steps for outside too, such as gates for the pasture still, and a shelter to raise calves.  I want the cow operation to go year round.  I want to be sure to make some money on them, and have some for our freezer!  I need to get something on the two harden spaces to kill off all the weeds and grasses growing in them.  They need to be ready for summer next year, and ready for serious amounts of planting if we are going to make a push for a real successful year out there!  I still have not finished the ceiling of the chicken coop either!  That has to be done to keep the chickens safe.  I don’t need another flock getting slaughtered by a stray mink again this year!  They are getting close to laying!  When those eggs start coming, I want to do a lot of things with them, including pickling! 

Really, I need to sit down and make a list… 


Kelsey J Bacon

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Starting Fresh, Feeling Fresh!

Today has been a really good day here!  We sorted out some of the last things in the granary, and cleared out the rubbish from the barn.  We cleared the mess from those two buildings that was in the yard, and got a truckload of junk up to the dump.  For the first time in years, I am finally at a point where I am not totally and utterly embarrassed about the idea of photographing where I live!  It is not a perfect dream home, mind you, but it is not humiliatingly cluttered either!  As of this moment, we are at a good starting point, and every day it gets a little better, rather than feeling like a downward spiral into a bottomless pit of filth and the debris of a neglected life that only wants to gather dust and cobwebs, and damn anyone who wants to actually change anything for the better. 

Today was a really good day here because we cleared some of the last of the cobwebs and then spent the rest of the day feeling like getting things done because we were not swamped with more to clean than we could possibly do while not neglecting everything else that makes us who we are. 

Today was a really good day because we were finally able to take control of our own lives.  We were able to choose what to do, and do it, without guilt, without judgment, without accusation.  Well, maybe there was accusation, but not from within the walls of our own home.  Today was so good because we were free to be ourselves for the first time in so long!  And that felt good! 

So we cleaned out the truck today.  We cleaned out all of the junk the little ones had left on the floor.  We also pressure washed the carpet, because yes, it was that bad!  Check it.  It is outside right now with all four doors open, drying out.  It will probably take all day tomorrow too, and maybe tomorrow night as well, and maybe even the next day and the next night, but we have the time, and we know what we are doing over that period of time, so yes, we can do this. 

Tonight is supposed to be irrigation night, but I am taking the night off because of the problems we had on Wednesday.  The mainline cotter pin broke, sending the little grabber piece on the on/off handle down some 800 feet of pipe, leaving me no way to shut off the line.  I kicked the line off the valve opener, and tried to reach in to shut it off. Unfortunately, four inches of gushing water created far too much pressure for me to even reach into.  Knock the valve opener off, and we were left with a mushroom of water, shooting in all directions, and going as far as about 30 feet from the center.  Jordan said, “Here, hold my hat,” and grabbed the pipe wrench and went into the water and shut down the gate.  It was a proud moment.  As far as I was concerned, he earned his weeks rent right there in that one move, so he got to keep it today when he came to pay it.  It was the very least I could do!  It was one of those moments when I was stood looking at something that had to be done, and thinking, “I really don’t want to do this!”  Jordan jumped at it like it was nothing!  Well done, and bravo Mr. Warner! 

Well, I have an early start tomorrow, so I am off to bed now.  Maybe I can actually start to photograph the house for some future posts soon.  Especially as we work on improving it!  There is so much to do, and so much to document.  Never mind the hordes. 


Kelsey J Bacon

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The Banker

A couple of weeks ago we went to the bank to do some business with a Miss Cox.  When we arrived, she spoke with us a bit about what we wanted to do, then proceeded to log us into her computer.

“Okay, what is your first name?” 

“Kelsey,” I said.  “K-E-L-S-E-Y.”

“And your last name?” 

“Bacon, like what you have for breakfast.  I know, I have got a girl’s first name, and my last name is a breakfast meat,” I laughed. 

She laughed out loud, and then said “Well, at least everybody loves bacon!” 

“Well sure they do!  Just like everyone loves…”  My eyes scanned the name plaque on her desk once again to check her last name.  I stopped there. 


Kelsey J Bacon

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Not Sleeping Lately

I am living on less than the desirable amount of sleep these days.  I went to bed a bit late last night, which has been happening a lot lately.  Jordan offered to put on the irrigation, so I laid down at about 11:30, and Katrina needed to get up at 3:40AM.  I tried to get her awake then, but fell asleep and got her up finally at 5:00.  I laid awake from five till six, when I got up to shut off the irrigation.  Raising cows on this place is truly a labor of loving being wet, and raising grass.  I was awake after putting off the irrigation, so I am journaling and trying to get that fresh start in life that I need right now. 

Mom is over.  There is a bit of dispute as to why, but in the end, it is because she and her mom don’t get along, and need some time and space between them.  I want mom here.  She hardly knows my children, and I want her to have the time to come to appreciate them.  We need to figure out how to get her back to Denver though, so she can be home.  She has been out since her dad died in April.  It has been a long stay for her, and it is getting time for her to head home and get some things settled there, particularly pertaining to her health. 

Yesterday was a bit of a laugh.  Before driving David’s chair to Sam’s Club for an exchange, I rescued a baby Robin, and with Dylan’s help, put it back into the nest it came from.  After returning home, I had to rescue Jordan who seems to have a bad fuel pump.  On my way home, as I passed Ross Bird’s house on the right, a calf came running into the road from the left, and I had to stop and pasture it.  I think it is Sverro’s calf, so I put it in our pasture for him to determine and retrieve when he is over again.  So yesterday was spent helping others. 

Now that we have the house all to ourselves, there is a lot of work to do, and I need to get tooled up and stocked on wood to get at that.  There is cabinetry to build, and shelves to construct, and finally, a lot of redecorating to do!  We are still trapped under a lot of cleaning, especially in the barn and the granary, but the house is almost completely clear!  I have a bad water heater to replace, and a septic system that will need work, and windows, insulation, heating, and cooling to sort out.  We have lighting upgrades to work on too.  I also have a busted lawn mower to fix!  There is landscaping outside, a garden space to kill the overgrowth of weeds on, and a pasture that still needs fencing repairs and upgrades, as well as five gates to buy and install.  There are also animal shelters and facilities to get built in the sacrifice pasture before winter!  I need to finish cleaning out the garage, which really serves as a workshop.  That has to be sorted so I can work in it!  Oh, and there is a Colorado Blue Spruce that needs all of its lowest boughs cut off so we can have a shady part in the yard to sit in, more yard space, and a view to the pasture across the road from the house, because it blocks a huge portion of that, making it that much more difficult to be aware of our livestock. 

Then there is The Prospering Peasant.  (www.theprosperingpeasant.com)  That poor little website has been so badly neglected, and needs all the love and attention I can afford it!  I have got so much work to do there! 

Oh, and did I mention the basement?

basement

Thankfully it is not a full basement.  Well, it is a full basement!  But not under the whole house!  It is only under the pantry.  I will obviously never be able to save it, so I think the best option will be to fill it with gravel and sort the pumps out to work properly to well below wherever the top of the gravel level is.  The cracks in the wall are huge, and between whatever seepage there if from the canal across the street, and the amount of irrigation that gets poured on all sides of us, and the possibility we may even be on a spring, and whatever else, we are doomed to be forever flooded down there.  I need to do something with it before any of those walls fall in, or things will get real expensive. 

Did I also mention that I need to start stockpiling winter hay?  Anyway…


Kelsey J Bacon

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An Ending

Grandma moved out of our place and into a little house in Preston.  She is 80, and I do not think that living alone is something she is fit for, however, she is still mentally alert, and I am not in a position to prevent her acting like the adult she is.  The whole fiasco around her moving has been just that, and the less said, the better. 

So, onto how our lives are changing!  Well, we have freed up bathroom and the only tub in the house, so the girls can finally have a bath.  We also got a huge closet my wife can store all of her craft supplies in with room to spare!  She also gets the bedroom for her crafting, and for an office.  It is downstairs, so much cooler in the summers, and better lit.  The dining room is free for us to use as we see fit too, and the table and hutch in there will soon be moved out so we can put in a smaller table, and just have the built in hutch.  The living room is free too, and we are currently using it as a room for the girls to play in, and the family to relax in.  Before, most of that sort of thing was relegated to the upstairs, where again, summer is very hot, and it is unsuited for habitation during daylight hours.  Much of the pantry has been cleared out, and the big fridge grandma bought for herself is out of the kitchen, allowing us to put ours in again, rather than keeping it in the pantry.  Yes, it is a large pantry, with washing facilities therein.  The whole house has been affected, and everything is breathing much easier. 

Without us being under grandma’s feet, or grandma being under ours, I think everyone will be able to relax and get on better.  One of the difficult aspects of the multi-generational home has been raising children.  When an older generation comes in, their expectations and cultural norms come too.  The middle generation in the situation is trying to change and improve what the top gen did while raising their family, and the bottom generation can feed on the dissent between them.  This creates a morality void in the chasm, which is to say, the bottom generation learns bad habits from the dissent if that dissent is not well managed.  Or, in even more practical terms, teenage boys can learn dick-ish behavior from parents and grandparents who disagree with each other.  What’s more, moral and ethical upbringing gets sorely misguided when, for example, the religious beliefs of the eldest generation are being taught behind the backs of the middle generation to the five and under of the youngest generation.  How does such sleight of hand teach honesty and integrity?  How can you teach a child to value honesty and integrity when your methods of teaching them involves deceit?  It fails.  With grandma moving out, the big elephant in the room is instead now a mouse, and it can be spoken of freely without fear of offense.  Our family prefers open and honest communication, where even religion and politics are allowed, and dissent is too.  Intelligence is encouraged, and applauded, rather than shunned and scolded as being ‘too big for one’s britches.’ 

As I write this, a hawk is being harassed by a smaller bird over the pasture outside my window.  While I feel like it is metaphorical of the past few years of living with my grandparents, I am sure that who gets the role of the hawk, and who gets the role of the smaller bird is up for debate. 

The important thing now is being able to write this, express that things are changing, and that our freedom is no longer impinged, and that we are able to put the past behind us, bury the hatchet, as it were, and move on to a new era.  Hopefully that era will be one where grandma’s children will take an active role in assisting her rather than leaving their parents’ care solely to me and my family.  We are the only ones who live in the valley, so I do expect to still carry the lion’s share of the burden.  Hopefully for that reason alone, Grandma and I will keep a status quo that is peaceful and mature, and not overbearing on each other. 

I have a farm, and a family, and my children range from 18 months to 18 years old.  I have animals to look after and a livelihood to try to build on this place, eking food from the land, and hopefully enough income to eventually allow my dear wife the freedom to work at what she loves for a share of our needs too.  And to that end, it is time to put a line under the past, and move on to a new page in my journal.  Literally!


And this concludes the three generation cohabitation era of my life. 

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How I Cow

Yesterday I went out on the hunt to buy a cow, and after seven hours of searching, found one available to buy.  Upon returning home and posting about it on Facebook, I received several comments regarding how it seemed too soon to take the cow from its mother.  I want to clear up some ideas surrounding that, and the prospects for a bull calf in a dairy.  These are thoughts and ideas procured from living in a valley with more dairies in it than I have even begun to try to count, but they are on just about every road, and within five miles of our house, I cannot even tell you how many there are, but I can think of four within one mile, and they just continue on in that density. 

For some, the idea of buying beef is detestable full stop.  I am human, and think of it too, and while I agree, and am somewhat aware of the consciousness of a cow because I deal with them just about daily now, I am also aware of one simple fact that overrides even my conscious on the topic.  Every single day of my life I have had to have several meals, each consisting of a number of living things that have died, be they plant or animal.  Every animal on Earth has done the same, and so have you, dear reader.  If anything is going to continue to survive, it is going to eat something else that is alive.  For you to live, other things MUST die.  Likewise, when I die, some things will live because of me.  All of this is beyond our control.  It is the nature of life.  We obviously can control what dies to a degree.  I am of the mind that evolution and science has taught that as a human I am an omnivore who needs both meat and vegetable to survive.  I don’t try to dispute this fact, because to me it is as plain as the teeth in my mouth.  I chose to eat animals, and while I could detest it, I also detest the idea that some animals eat humans.  So there it is. 

Because I eat beef and other forms of meat, I do worry about how it is raised, and what price I pay for it.  I am lucky because I am in a situation where I can raise my beef myself, and that has been the first endeavor in our work with beef.  Our first cow is for our family.  It is one that we picked and have raised in the way we feel healthiest and best for our family.  It is setting the standard for any cows that follow it through our fields.  I want to raise every cow as though it may be the one picked in the years to follow to feed my children.  So far, I have not dealt in any antibiotics or growth hormones and where possible I do not want to, at all.  Yet, if the health of an animal is compromised and I have to for some reason give it something to help sustain it, I would do that.  Otherwise, a cow that comes into our fields will spend most of its approximate two year life eating grass that is not being sprayed with herbicides or pesticides.  If for some reason I have to, such as a massive influx of weeds, or something like that, then I would hope to be able to give the cows a break from that section of pasture and keep them away for long enough that any harmful substances would not be ingested by the cows.  But as a sensible business practice, I would do what I have to in order to keep my fields productive.  You see, raising cows on pasture is more worrying about the state of the grass than it is worrying about the state of the cows.  I spend more effort raising grass, and the grass raises the cow. 

Winter sets in and guess what?  I have to buy hay from someone else.  I cannot guarantee that my hay suppliers will have followed the same practices I would follow on my fields.  They have to worry about weeds too, and they have to worry about insects and mold, and getting enough growth to make a enough money to pay for farm equipment that costs them hundreds of thousands of dollars.  A basic tractor with a cab on it easily tops $50,000, while a bailer, which just gathers hay that has already been cut and left to dry a little in the field, and puts the hay into a bale, costs about $100,000.  Neither of these is equipped to put food on your table.  That gear will cost a lot more.  Yet, I will buy a bale of hay that has been grown, protected, harvested, wrapped in twine, stacked, gathered, stacked again, then possibly moved to another location where I will buy it, for $7.00 for a two string bale, around 80 pounds of hay. 

I have not got into graining or finishing the beef yet, so I won’t cover that here other than to say that before a cow is sent to the butcher, grain is fed it to fatten it up a little, not to increase weight, but to add a marbling of fat into the meat that will make it taste a lot better to us humans.  Let’s face it, the T-Bone tastes as good as it does because of the fat along the outer edges. 

So, mostly, my cows get a happy-for-a-cow existence on my fields in a beautiful valley, which none of them have expressed any personal preference for, and get to eat a fresh salad of grass that I raise with a lot of water, and a lot of worry.  I spend my days fighting with a leaky irrigation system that often does not build up enough pressure to hold its seals shut tight, thus not working at all.  I turn this irrigation on two nights a week, starting at midnight and I leave it on ‘til 6:00Am the next morning.  I get to worry with the irrigation company over how much time I can leave it on, and how many heads I can have on my system.  I spend my time keeping the fence in good order so the cows don’t get out and get hurt, eat other people’s food that is out for their cows in open mangers at the dairy next door, cause a car accident, or get bothered by anything that might get in after them in their field, although I doubt there is anything big enough to damage them.  I have to make sure the cows don’t fall into the canal and drown.  I have to be sure the bridge over the canal is in good working order.  I have to be sure the cows have plenty of fresh water available to them.  I have to be sure no disease as spread to them from one of the two dairies that are less than 500 feet from the borders of our land.  I have to manage field rotation, making sure that the cows eat in one section of field at a time, allowing the rest to have a break and grow better.  I also get to buy baby cows and feed them for two to three months by hand, all the while worrying about their size, health, growth, shelter, fresh water, and so on.  I have to look at their pooh to be sure they have not got scours!  All of their lives they will have to be watched for cancer and pink eye, and any other awful malady that could claim their lives before I have a chance to recoup the costs of raising them. 

All the time I am doing all of this I have to worry about pulling the money for it all from our family budget, I have to care for my family, I have other animals to look after, which all have as different requirements as your dog does from your cat.  None of this is a complaint!  I love doing this!  I love seeing the cows grow healthy.  I love seeing them thriving.  I love seeing them being curious about me in my fields when I am working on fence, or irrigation, or their water supply.  They never smile at me.  I don’t know if they would if they could.  It is a lot of work, and new things crop up every day.  I know that the better I raise my cows, the better  I will be able to feed my family later on down the road.  I also know that if you buy a cow from me for your family, it will have been raised in the best conditions possible. 

I buy my cows as bull calves.  That means they are males, and they have not been doctored to remove their testicles.  I cannot leave those on!  I have to band them and allow them time to fall off, watching for infection!  If I do not, then the animal is a high risk animal that can more easily kill me, my children, my neighbors, and so on.  I have a responsibility to keep the animal tamed, and the best way to do this is to remove his little testosterone factories.  My bull calves are bought from any of the local dairies, where they have been birthed by a cow whose purpose in live is to first be milked so the public can enjoy the convenience of milk in a bottle as well as all the creams, cheeses, and butter and other byproducts they buy at the grocery store.  Even if every family in America were given a dairy cow, it just wouldn’t work out because of all the people who live in cities and cannot raise them.  There will always be dairies to provide these products.  Once the cow is no longer useful for milk, it goes out of the dairy as a beef cow, just as a chicken will decrease laying eggs and be used for a meat bird.  Both cows and chickens also produce great fertilizer, by the way, which is also a byproduct, making them useful for a full three parts of diet as the fertilizer is used to grow vegetables for vegetarians.  The milk cows have a useful milking period of about ten months after they calf.  Then the milk supply drops off and the cow must be impregnated and give birth again in order to restart that supply of milk.  Any female calves are put into the dairy’s service making more milk, when she comes of age.  I recently spoke to a man who owns and operates a Jersey Dairy.  Of his 2,000 cows, 1,000 were milking.  This was at the cleanest running dairy I can find anywhere in the valley.  So he is feeding 2,000 cows, and only half are making him a daily return to support all the many activities and people who work for him on the dairy.  Bull calves have only one place on a dairy.  That is to impregnate mother cows.  It does not take many bulls to do all the work, and as I have said before, bulls are very dangerous creatures.  They are not nice, and they don’t give a care about how long you live, and whether you have had a high quality life or not.  Because of this, most bull calves are sold, and many to guy like me who check with the dairies to see if there are any we can buy and raise for meat. 

I cannot speculate what would happen if the bulls were allowed to roam free and live out the happy life in the wilds.  They would have to be castrated.  They would undoubtedly be  hunted.  They would certainly overgraze the land, leaving nothing behind for other cows such as the dairy cows many of us drink from, or for the deer or the elk or moose.  Instead, people like me must pay market value to buy the bulls, and do everything I have listed above to raise them so they can sell them to a public that complains about how animals are treated before they are eaten. 

I know that last sentence comes off as a jab to people who genuinely care about animals.  It is a jab to those who carry on eating.  It is a jab even to those who eat Jell-O without wondering where gelatin comes from.  It is a Jab to anyone who says I don’t care bout my animals, how they live, what they are fed, and so on. 

Finally, there have been comments made by family and friends suggesting that because I bought my cow the day after it was born, it was taken from its mother too soon.  When it is removed from the mother is none of my choosing.  That is up to the dairy, which puts the mother back into circulation.  First, the baby is fed colostrums from the mother fir the health of the baby.  Then the baby is fed milk replacer, which I don’t think could be as good as mother’s milk.  I hand feed my baby cows, giving them a chance to become a bit more familiar with me.  I think that increases my safety!  If you are ever out on a farm, DO NOT rub a cow on its forehead.  That will encourage the cow to butt, and that could result in the death of a human being.  I want my cow to socialize with humans and with other cows in order to decrease the dangers of the cow as it gets older.  It needs to be familiar with humans, and safe around them.  The sooner I can start that, the better.  Bull calves will always be put to use as meat in the end.  They will have to, or face a wholesale slaughter.  What I can control is how they live while they are with me.  As I will be selling them for meat, or using them myself, I have to have this part done while they are only about two years old.  If I wait longer the meat would toughen up and probably much of it go to waste.  If the life of the cow is going to mean anything, then it has to mean that other lives continue on, so waste is not acceptable.  The cow must serve for as many meals as possible. 

Perhaps you see other possibilities, or just see things differently.  This is how the cattle business has revealed itself to me so far.  In fact, more often I see dairy cows in much worse appearing conditions than beef, which are usually allowed to graze freely on open pastures in mountains and on hills that would often otherwise be useless for agriculture.  Only the best dairies seem to allow grazing, such as Organic Valley, which has a dairy contractor bordering my land, assuring me one less source of pesticides and the like.  Other dairies use feedlots with as many as five thousand cows on just 25 acres, much of which is concreted over, and where feed is mixed and put in manger where the cows eat, standing toe deep or more in their own feces.  Efficiency is a key factor in these dairies, and until the average family is willing to raise their own cow, including milking at 4AM and 4PM daily, or the cow could die, efficiency will always have to factor in for cheap milks, creams, cheeses, and so on.  If you dream of making the lives of just a few cows better than you think they are now, then get some land and get at it.  I can assure you that it is very rewarding, and eye-opening.  Then go visit dairies to buy your cows.  Find sad cows and buy them.  Leave the happy ones where they are at, so you have room for the sad ones.  For me, I just do what I do with any other living creature.  I respect it, and I treat it the best I can.  And while I use many of the ones I raise as food, I do so to allow those ones with the greater consciousness to live a day longer, so it can complain about where its food has come from. 

I don’t really want, or mean for any of this to come off sarcastic, but some of it has.  There is just too much irony not to.  We live in an imperfect world, and even some very dear people to me have said things that imply I have not made it better when that is all that I have tried to do in the best way I know how to.  If that is still not enough, then my friends, family, you are not making the world any better yourselves.  I have a pitchfork, a rake, a hoe, and some fields.  Get your shoulder next to mine and show me how it’s done. 

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Start of Summer 2014

So, summer is almost upon is, officially, and it is 2014, and things are ticking along just as well as can be expected for us.  The kids are already out of school for the summer, and Missus and I are trying to get this little one acre farm up and running and the six and a half acres across the street producing enough grass to feed a few cows to raise and sell.  Not everything goes perfectly, but I do feel like things in general are on an upswing as things come to life around here.  Despite the problem with the irrigation, which will in the end only affect one paddock, the animals we have are feeding nicely over there.  Hopefully there is plenty of food to last them the summer. 

Jordan did not graduate with his class, was two classes short, which isn’t bad for a guy who took the first semester of high school off because of recovery from a head injury.  He’s just got to finish the two classes over the summer and get his diploma, and he is a free man, so watch out world! 

Dylan is starting his first job this week.  He is going to be working on the Bowles’ farm a mile south of us.  I can look out the window right now and not one single thins obstructs the view to where he has to show up to work.  I am excited that he will be starting out with farm work.  He needs the hard work to liven him up and get him away from the magic box that lights up his life. 

Kiry will be starting first grade in the fall.  Wow…  She will go from two days a week to four days a week at school (the days are longer in school here to make up for the Friday off) and given how much she learned in Kindergarten, I can’t wait till she is smarter than me by the time she finishes the first semester of first grade. 

Khallarnie is walking and starting to talk a little now.  She is a cheeky bugger!  That girl has already learned to ignore people she doesn’t want to hear, which is a valuable life skill as an adult, but not that great for those who are still learning at her age and up. 

Katrina is working to beautify the yard.  She has been planting what she bought at the nursery yesterday, and today we will be putting some vegetables in the ground.  FOOD!  The vegetables are her department, and the meat is mine.  She has got a lot of work to do, and I am trying to help her along the way.  She is adding lots of plant species in the yard that will return each year and hopefully reduce much of our work to maintenance and weeding.  We have many things to do, building and planting and harvesting this summer, and then it is off to food preservation! 

My biggest headache right now is why the three inch irrigation line is not pressurized enough to run the heads on half of it.  I have got a bit or poly tape to put on the borders of the paddocks still in the back pasture across the street.  When that is done, and the back fence is brought up to scruff, and gates installed across the street, I have the fence on this side of the street to rework.  The cows next door like to reach through and eat from our grass and garden.  I want them to get electrocuted when they do that.  Not severely, of course, just a little shock so they keep their heads out. 

All of this is fine and well with me, because the paradox of the pursuit of happiness is that happiness is the pursuit itself.  I figure by the end of this summer I will have everything in place here to begin raising some cows for beef, which I will be able to sell and make a little money from.  It won’t be a huge amount at all, but a stipend that hopefully will help us get some more things around here sorted out so that by the time we retire, we will be pretty much off grid and able to support ourselves at a fairly low cost, and we will be able to carry on doing work we love, because let’s be honest, neither of us looks forward to a lazy time of putting our feet up and becoming stale and old and irrelevant.  The day I loose my usefulness is the day I might as well die. 

Today is a Sunday.  I went to bed just after midnight because I had to turn on the irrigation water across the street.  I woke up and was outside again at 4:30 this morning trying to figure out our pressure problems.  I shut off the water at 6:00AM.  Two hours have since passed, and I have not talked myself back into bed yet.  Amazingly, since 4:30, I have seen three of my kids wandering to the bathroom and around the house.  Who knew these people were such early risers?  Maybe they need a pancake breakfast!  ‘Round here, if I serve pancakes for breakfast, there is a tradition that it signifies a hard day of work ahead. 

Pancakes or none, I anticipate a hard day of work ahead! 


Kelsey J Bacon

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The Jetsons

My mom is over visiting from Denver and this morning her cell phone keeps ringing notifications to say that something or another has happened on it, probably a social media alert.  It is consistent, and unending.  It chimes off a little chime that reminded me of the Jetsons theme music.  It is sort of a doorbell that chimes “Meet George Jetson!”  Okay, I am a product of childcare in front of a TV screen. 

That lead me to the theme as I remember it, and of course, also being a product of the age, sat in my kitchen in 2014, I wondered if the order in which the characters were introduced in the intro of the cartoon was because of sexism, character importance in the cartoon, or gender roles in the 1960’s and the natural order in which school age children might be expected to be dropped off by the father of a one car family.  Interesting how in 1962 they thought that Y2K families would still be one car!  I suppose if I took an online pole I might get votes in every category.  The arguments could be made in any direction, although the more educated elite would probably favor sexism and or gender roles, and the less educated folks might suggest another category, which is “hey, they needed to put them in some order, and it was just a theme song, so who cares?” 

My eyes drifted off south for a moment as I thought about it.  The southern ridgeline of mountains from here catches the morning sun beautifully, and while they are deceptively small, they lead to the Wasatch Front down in Utah, with the Wellsville Mountains looming high to the right, and a fully lit frontal view of them.  Between here and there is Logan, a moderate sized city which hides just behind some trees near my house, The year 2,000 has turned out almost nothing like the people of 1962 must have hoped it would.  In some ways we are still battling their attitudes and ideas.  But, looking at those mountains, I am sure glad the view is not congested by the sight of flying cars! 

That’s my simple thought for this morning! 

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Testing

I am testing Andriod on my site. It seems it doesn’t like pictures! But it does post!

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Remembering Grandpa Bancroft

So, grandpa Bancroft reminded us last week that we are all mortal, even him.  We put him in the ground at a family started cemetery in Duchene, Utah, where one of the ancestors buried a young child, so the story goes, on his own property rather than the city cemetery.  Now the cemetery hosts mostly family graves, and is filled in like a small, but proper place.  It was the first time in many, many years that I have stood on this particular plot of ground, and in fact remember the last time as being around 1975, after my mom’s cousin, Nancy, lost her four year old son, and he was put in there too.  Nancy seemed surprised and pleased that I remembered it all, and showed me Mark’s grave and explained several of the others and how they were related to me.  I cannot thank Nancy enough for the time she spent on that memory lane with me.  By the time we finally left, everyone else was gone except the gravedigger, who had just finished filling in grandpa’s grave. 

The graveside service was a small affair with a 21 gun salute from the Disables Veterans, and a flag ceremony from active enlisted Army.  It was simple, and short, and suited the man we had gathered to remember.  His standard metal coffin lay shut in the middle of it all while a few of us shared some memories, his son Rusty, who lived with him and cared for him requested it stay shut because he did not want to see a dead body.  Rusty is so obviously Autistic, but in the days he was brought up, there was no such diagnosis, so he has lived a simple life, in mutual benefit with his dad.  Now he has to go it alone.  My mom was the oldest in that family, and is staying with Rusty to help him adjust to the new circumstances, and my brother, Kerry, and sister, Kristina, spent some time after the funeral painting the inside of the house for Rusty, so he would have a fresh, clean environment to live in. My thanks to them for that was to insist for the two days they stayed here after that they rest, and not do any work.  You have to understand that whenever any of my siblings travel, they demand work to do where they stay. They left this morning, relieving me of the duty of keeping them from being busy.  It’s a lot of work! 

Now, only a voice from upstairs carried through the house; it’s my wife upstairs on a work call, and I sit here with one of my young daughters in her high chair while my mind reviews flashes of light which amount to memories of grandpa.  My daughter is smashing toast in her hair as the memories defog into me in similar activities at a similar age.  I remember things like George, grandpa’s now deceased son, just after his service in the Army, going to live in the back bedroom with his new wife, Jeannie, who happened to have the same name as George’s sister, who is also dead since 1976 from Cancer.  I remember when grandpa was going to put an addition onto the back of that bedroom, and a foundation hole was dug by hand, only to remain devoid of any cement, or any addition whatsoever.  That finally served as a place for some garbage to be dumped before it was filled in many years later.  I remember how grandpa used to call his neighbor girl my girlfriend because I would go over and play with her, in her yard, on her swings, in her room, running through the sprinklers on a hot summer’s day.  I remember too how at nights, when I lived in that house with him as a very young child, his snoring would fill the whole house, even with the doors closed.  It was there that I attended Kindergarten when I was five, and mom and I slept on the couch in the living room, her feet towards me, and mine towards her, because she could not afford anyplace of her own.  All of these memories are soft, muted, and carry through my mind much like that voice from upstairs right now, barely audible, but there, to be sure.  The one memory that is clearest above all though, was grandpa’s laugh.  I can mimic it, but I cannot describe it, and I am going to keep it, all to myself, as the greatest gift he gave his family.  Laughter was important to him.  I am sure that laughter is why he made it past 90, despite his humble living, and the losses of two of his children in his life. 

There will be many thoughts of him, and many memories that will echo in my mind till the day I join him in the earth.  Those will remain mine alone, and all I will share with you is that they are all good.  There are no secrets to hide, just happy moments that hit me like the water from the neighbor’s sprinkler as I dance around in the sunlight!

I love you grandpa!  Farewell! 


Kelsey J Bacon

The memory I shared at his funeral was of calling him once many years ago, when I still attended church, and asking him if he was ever going to go (there was one next door to his house).  He replied, “I live close enough to one to throw a rock through the window.  That’s about as close as I’m ever going to get.” 

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